10-01 10:40pm

Hi ♥

So I binged today.... But that's not what I wanted to talk about..

I wanna talk about something that I walked into at school..

We got a performance, about alcohol and drugs, example: how a low body inmage, and no confidence can really bring you low in life, so low that you start using drugs and alcohol to make your life more fun.

A guy told us his story, on using and being addicted. And also that he in one moment was considering suicide. And he kept looking at me, and I almost cried because yesterday evening I was considering suicide myself, and I cutted large cuts on my thighs, which hurt as fuck..

And then I started to think, like why are schools giving us information about how dangerous and addictive drugs and alcohol are? Like, WE KNOW, we heard it last year, and the year before last year etc.

And then there's me, struggling with eating disorders and depression and selfharm..

WHY in the fuck don't they explain this side of life?!

That dude was thinking about killing himself once or twice! There are people (like me) who think of killing themselfs everynight! They struggle to be alive! To keep going at the low end of the stick!

But they don't care, they just don't want us to get addicted or do drugs.. That's it..

And also today, my sister got so freaking anngry at me that she broke my door.. This is the second time she's done that and it really pisses me of!

And then people say I have anger issues.. Yeah fucking right.. You've got the wrong one into treatment for anger..

So instead of studying for my English test tomorrow, I was trying to fix my dood ( didn't work ) wrote the story to my friends ( stupidest action ever ) and am I writing this.

Well that's going to be a fucking F.

And btw I would really appriciate if you'd watch 'ReMoved"part 1+2 on youtube, I cried a lot, but it is very inspirational.

This is a bye I guess?

Bye.